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List Of Things To Do
03:21
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I’ve a list of things to do
It sits on my floor
I cross it several times a day
On my way out the door
I’d throw it out but I’ve grown kind of fond of its new little home
Alone on the hearth of a fireplace I never use anymore
I’ve got a list of things to do
Cross them off as I go
Makes no difference to me
If they get done real slow
I’m on track
I don’t look back
I reap what I sow
It’s all shit
Bullshit
Tell me something I don’t know
It’s all shit
Well, isn’t it
Who the hell knows
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2. |
This Sinking Ship
03:05
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I have a feeling I can’t shake
You had it right to move upstate
You had to go, I had to stay
I think about it every day
I have a feeling I’ll be gone
As soon as something turns me on
I’ve got to leave, I’ve gone insane
I think about it every day
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3. |
Fantasy I Leave
03:24
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I don’t talk about the things we used to know
I don’t ever read the letters that you wrote
We don’t have to talk about it anymore
We don’t have to talk about it
Now I catch every spider on my own
Don’t know what I was so afraid of
You talk about me like no time has passed
You don’t have to talk about me
I don’t want to carry on
You’re much better in my memory
I talk about you as if make-believe
In a fantasy I leave
I talk about you as if make-believe
In a fantasy I leave
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4. |
Visceral Plight
04:01
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He’s been having dreams, wakes up in a sweat
Rips apart his eyelids, holds onto his chest
Wants to call a friend but it’s 3 AM
Everyone is sleeping and the house is dead
He does like he learned once in therapy
Inhale from the gut and exhale slowly
It’s almost like it never happened at all
When you turn on your light
Just a shadow shape-shifting on the wall
Like when a car’s driving by
This is how you’ve lived since you were a kid
You wake up in sweat but recall all of it
I get out of bed, make myself some tea
Think about the things I’ve buried deep inside of me
Think about the things I carry deep inside of me
Is it like it never happened at all
This visceral plight
What’s a shadow shape-shifting on the wall
When there are no cars to drive by
Shadows on the wall
Nobody driving by
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5. |
News Is Getting Old
04:04
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I’m tired and I’m getting cold
I turn the heater up, I recognize I’m getting old
I wake up with a sore neck
Take a tylenol to forget
My head is fucking killing me
I didn’t even drink
I’m paying through the nose now
For shit that I don’t even know about
When I kinda wanna end it
I know my thoughts have descended
Guess it’s time to phone up Helen
I could use a session or two or a fucking million
But I don’t wanna call her
It’s been too long since I saw her
I don’t think she’s mad at me
But I bet she’s disappointed
Bet she doesn’t even think twice
About her clients from a past life
But even I don’t really think that
Maybe she would like to take me back
I felt like we were married
Sometimes I just wanted to lie
She saw into me like a hot knife
Would sit and watch me while I cried
I could tell when she was tired
And when she didn’t give a shit
She could tell when I was nervous
She knew what I was trying to forget
I love her like a mother
I can’t even pretend
Now I feel guilty cause I want her to miss me
When probably all I really need are better friends
I felt like we were married
Guess that’s the kind of wife I’d be
Weird love, enough is never enough
And when the fuck is it appropriate to leave
How can I have an attachment
To someone just because they listen
Guess I might fall in love with anyone
Who vows to validate my feelings instead of dismiss them
I didn’t even tell her
What she probably needed to know
But she planted what I have her
I sit back and watch it grow
She hugged me over Christmas
I wanted her to say
That she loved me and missed me
And didn’t want me to go away
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6. |
Fantasy
01:30
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7. |
With Strangers
04:37
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Every time I drink I want another one and another one
And another one and another one
And another one and another one
I know what you think, but I’m not one of them
One of them
One of them
I’ve never been like one of them
One of them
I see a shrink just like everybody else
I tell her things, she tries to help
I think it helps, I really do
To have another point of view
So don’t you think I’d know it after all these years
Of working through in leather chairs
If you were right to say and think
That all I want is another drink
And another one and another one
And another one and another one
And another one and another one
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8. |
A Good Time
03:57
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We had a good time
When we were young but now we’re older and a lot has changed
We’ve gone our separate ways
No fun to realize
I only theorized without making you a part of it
Now it’s all gone to shit
And then there’s last night
You stood beside me as my feet drew circles on the floor
Who were they dancing for?
And then you walked out
I’m not about to say please stay
Those days have come and gone
Off on and off and on
We had a good time
When we were young but now we’re leveling on different planes
On earths that only quake
No fun to come to
Wishing you’d come through then remembering what I forgot
We were and now we’re not
And then there’s last night
Under the waning light of bodies set to separate
Some starts are meant to fade
Til dim and dark again
I can’t see through but pretty soon I’ll flick the light again
On off and on again
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9. |
Opening Doors
05:20
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Well I don’t know what’s wrong here
I’ve been this way so long dear
God knows it’s been a long year
And I don’t know what’s wrong here
But if I keep my head up
Above the black matter
My will from going down
Maybe a light will show up
Above the black matter, the rabid mad hatter for that matter
If I keep my mind from opening doors in my head
Why don’t you know what’s wrong here
You’ve done the dance and song dear
It hasn’t been the best year
But maybe that’s alright dear
Cause if you keep your head up
Above the black matter
Your will from going down
You know a light will show up
Above the black matter, the rabid mad hatter for that matter
You’ll learn to keep your mind from opening doors in your head
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10. |
Overseas
02:10
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I would be your lover
I would be your friend
I would go the distance
Til death do us in
If I wanted to like I say I do
I could be specific
But I’ll keep it vague
If it wants to surface
It will find a way
If I want it to like I say I do
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11. |
Sleep Easy
04:17
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It’s well-intentioned but poorly advised
If I were you I would surely think twice
You have a habit of walking on ice
But the sun is in the sky, it’s best to keep that in mind
You’re well-intentioned and sharper than knives
But you have a darkness that could battle the night
You say you’re fine and I hope you’re alright
But lately all I hear is what you croon when you cry, saying
I remember nothing but the way we were
You’re well-intentioned and one of a kind
Whose own inventions are those of the mind
Sleep easy, it will level in time
Tomorrow you’ll awaken with a smile inside, saying
I remember nothing of the way we were
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12. |
Flackers
01:42
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